Did I go to Far

by Pam

If you read my blog's some of these first stories are going way back. The part about going to the xxx movie theater and the one about my first 3-some actually happened before we were married and we just celebrated 20 years together. The thing was, in those situations it was just I with either one other guy or I and a lot of men watching, but no other women were involved. When we found our first swing parties and there were all these couples there I felt insecure. For one thing I guess we were not married yet so I felt Mike might just find someone else he liked better. From a 'dating' perspective I think swinging can be intimidating. After we were married I was much more at ease with Mike being with other women. But, I will admit, there have been a few 'girlfriends' that he had that were in my opinion just a bit too beautiful and romantic with him for my comfort. But, I have always managed to keep my green monster under control.

As for the things I did that I shouldn't have. I will admit that the exact thing that I get jealous of Mike over I have engaged in a couple times. I would say it is getting too close to another guy or guys. I had a few sort of boyfriends between our going to the all couples parties and later going to Gang Bangs and forming my group. Mike has always traveled a lot with his work. He's an engineer and when we first moved to NH he also had a second office in the Washington DC area. We had lived there when we first got married. Anyway, at about the same time I discovered the Internet and was very open with myself. I remember calling Mike the first time I got on line and into some AOL chat rooms. I called him and said 'I'm on line and talking to people'. He asked what are you talking about and I said the obvious 'Sex'!

So, one night I had the kids in bed and was alone, having a couple drinks and basically told a chat room that I was horney and needed to get fucked. I had a lot of volunteer's lol. But, there was a guy I had been chatting with for a while who seemed nice, I really was extremely horny and wanted him to come to the house. I called Mike to tell him my plans and He (Mike) was dead set against it. He said he didn't know this guy and that it was dangerous. Something you should know, our home in NH was very nice, but also quite isolated. We lived on about 13 wooded acres and the driveway is over 1/4 mile long off the road, so now, thinking back, Mike was right to be concerned, but I just wasn't thinking about what could go wrong! Anyway, the guy faxed me a copy of his NH driver's license and I called him (not like me at all) on the phone and was convinced he was OK. So I went ahead and gave him, directions to the house and let him come over without ever meeting first. Everything was fine, he was not a mad serial killer or anything, but the point was I should have listened to Mike. He came over and we did have a great time. I got kind of dressed up, skirt and blouse, thigh-hi stockings and heals, but of course no panties or bra. He came in and introduced himself (Chris btw) and then gave me this very wet and passionate kiss in my kitchen. He was handsome, tall and gentle.

I had music playing and we slow danced for a while, it was romantic, but sex charged. While dancing I felt his cock grow hard and he pressed it against me. My pussy was so wet I and just felt I had to be taken soon. He unbuttoned my blouse and was sucking on my nipples, which drives me crazy. His hands went down to my butt and reached under my skirt to feel my bare ass. Pretty soon I was in the kitchen with my skirt up, my blouse open and his pants down to his ankles. I think he fucked me first right on the counter before we eventually went to my bedroom. He spent the night with me and I felt wonderful. One condition I had tried to put on the night was that we would video tape our play so I could share it with Mike later. Unfortunately, things just moved along too passionately and we didn't do any taping till the next morning. (Yes, I got up early and had got the kids ready for school and drove them there with a stranger behind my locked bedroom door!) When I got back from dropping the kids at school we spent another couple hours fucking like rabbits before he went to work very late.

After that night Mike said that although he was a little upset for my going ahead with having essentially a stranger in the house, I could see him again, but that he would have to meet him at some point. Its sort of an agreement that Mike and I have, we want to know what the other is up to, and that includes knowing whom we're sleeping with.

The issue was that my new friend was starting to treat me like a real girlfriend. He would send flowers to the house, and would only come over when I was home alone. He didn't want to meet Mike. He would take me out on 'dates' dinner and to clubs when I could go. Of course all these dates ended in bed, or I probably wouldn't have gone! But, I was enjoying the flirtation and attention that normally goes with 'dating'.  Then asked me to attend a family wedding with him, he wanted to take me and introduce me to his family.  I was enjoying the attention and feeling of being 'courted' but also knew this wasn't right. After a while, Mike told me that it had to stop. He didn't like the idea of me being with someone that he didn't know. I also didn't tell him about all the extra stuff, and no I didn't go to the wedding. But what I did that was most wrong was continue to have him over a few times when Mike was out of town. He would come over later, after I had put the kids to bed and spend the night with me. I was always a wreck the next day because I got no sleep and was totally spent.

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